To the girls and women of all ages, or whoever is reading this.
Its hard to be authentic in todays society. Don’t you agree? Its hard to be our genuine selves. This takes vulnerability. Thats hard to do. What if they don’t like me? What if the things I enjoy and the things I’m passionate about, they don’t accept? Its easier to hide behind a mask and act like we have it all together. Its easier to pretend to be someone else than to be exactly who you are. The media is constantly screaming at us. Its telling us we have to look a certain way, we have to act a certain way, we have to change ourselves before we can love who we are. Botox, fillers, creams, plastic surgery, makeup, showing off our bodies. Its screaming at us so loud we cant even hear our own hearts. And then before you know it you are exactly what everyone else wants you to be, and you don’t even know who you are anymore. This causes you to forget who you are and then you begin to search. Your searching soon leads you into trouble. At least it did for me. Sophomore year of high school was when I realized I was living my life for everyone else and I got lost. I was trying to please so many people I forgot who I was. I forgot what my identity was. So I tried finding myself. -getting attention from guys. Didn’t work. -drinking alcohol. Didn’t work. -partying and going out. Didn’t work. -running to friends, meeting other people. Didn’t work. -cutting my hair, changing my style. Didn’t work.
Non of these things worked for me and at the end of the day I still felt like I didn’t fit in anywhere. I still felt like I was meant for another place or something like that… I finally realized the missing piece to the puzzle. Jesus Christ. It may be hard to understand until you give your heart to the Lord yourself and start a personal relationship with him. I found my identity in Christ and it changed my life forever. Knowing God loves me and experiencing his grace, changed me. It changed how I look at every thing and every one. Let me tell you a few things that God thinks about you.
Whether or not you believe this, that is up to you. Im going to close this by telling you how God has changed my view of beauty. I was recently doing a photo shoot and I was asked to speak on camera about “What makes you feel beautiful.” It took me a minute because my immediate reaction was getting my makeup and hair done professionally, lavished in the highest designer clothing walking in New York Fashion week. That would make me feel beautiful. But then I realized that wasn’t even the truth…?
What makes ME feel beautiful is my heart. My skin, my hair, my clothes, my outward beauty will ALL fade away, but my heart with continue to grow and strengthen and become more and more beautiful. It truly is what is on the inside that counts. I love Jesus and I will do whatever it takes to follow him. I want to be a woman who loves people, all people! I want to be kind, passionate, humble, creative, and beautiful in my own way. I want my heart to reflect who I am, not my face or my outward beauty. I want my attitude to be one that leaves a lasting aroma, like a sweet fragrance that fills the air. I want to be kind and generous and loyal. I want to be real and not afraid to be vulnerable. I want to be authentic.
My favorite thing to do is to find beauty in the broken things.
Maybe that broken thing is you today, let me tell you some good news my dear.
You are beautiful! God loves you and thinks you are beautiful. In that rest assure and be confident!